pratically anything under the sun!!

friends: you lose and gain some as you journey the walks of life…
the past months were not the best for me… more so, i have changed a lot in so many ways… from my perspective and attitude towards people… either because of my experiences and how people has treated me…
it’s becoming so real to me that life can never be a smooth sailing in as much as you try to make it simpler…it’s either people were not who they are…or may be it’s just me…it was kinda sad really… you don’t expect that everyone will give their lending ears to hear you, but at least you would expect that those you call friends would be there for you… that they would hear you out and be honest with you despite how ridiculous things are…
but hey, that’s life… too bad yet too real…
for those who i have lost along the way… i really tried my best in keeping you… nonetheless, thank you for the memories… 

it’s been a while since I haven’t post anything…quite preoccuppied with so many things….haven’t posted yet my vacation rendezvous….!!it was one hell of a vacation…!!!sigh….:(

it’s my last day today in GTA….it’s a wow!!!the feeling is great…well not because I’m leaving…it’s sad actually since Im gonna miss everyone….but it’s great since this is the only time i realized how people in here appreciates me… and lucky me for having the opporunity of working with such good and great people…i’m really moved….

gosh…..!!!i’m really blessed…God showered me with wonderful people in my life…..my family, tita K, my kuya boys, AIU friends, HS friends, jopay friends, vbol friends, Dubai friends, MIJ,tito rj & tita net, newly found friends and now my GTA family…all i can say is wow, with a big smile on my face….:D

you make me smile just hearing your voice..

you brighten up my day with your simple hello..

you knocks me off my feet with your smile..

you melt my heart by your mere stare…

you make me happy each talking moment with you…

you make me fall with you everyday… sigh…

have you ever felt the feeling of not knowing what you feel…? unsure…not sad…not happy…not hazy…not clear…i call it point blank…it sucks…

why do we love ba?
so we can have somebody to talk to?
someone who can be there pag gusto natin gumala?
a person na pwedeng manlibre satin?
taong magbibitbit ng gamit mo?

Di ba nakakatawa rin na pagdating sa problema ng
ibang tao, ang galing< BR>galing mo? Pero ‘pag problema mo na yung
pinag-uusapan parang
nawawala n ng saysay lahat ng ipinayo mo dun sa
namomroblemang tao? Naiisip mong wala namang

mali

dun sa mga sinabi mo. Pero bakit parang wala ring
tama?

Bali-baliktad din ang nasasabi ng mga taong
tinamaan
ng madugong pana ng
pag-ibig. "Ngayon ko lang nalaman ganito pala.
Sabi ko na eh!" "Ang sarap mabuhay. Pwede na ‘ko
mamatay. Now na!"

At hindi lang ‘yon. Ang sarap din pagtawanan ng
mga
taong alam naman
nilang masasaktan lang sila eh magpapatihulog pa
rin
sa bangin ng pag-ibig. Tapos ‘pag luray-luray na
yung puso nila,
siyempre hindi sila yung may kasalanan.
Siya! "Bakit
niya ‘ko
sinaktan?" May kasama pang pagsuntok sa pader
yon,
at pagbabagsak ng
pinto.

Hayop talaga.

Mauubos ang buong magdamag ko kakasabi ng mga
bagay
na nakakatawa ‘pag
pag-ibig na ang pinag-usapan. Ang daming bese s
ko na
kasi siya nakasalubong
kaya masasabi ko nang eksperto na ‘ko.

Pero wala pa rin akong alam.

Pero ang pinakanakakatawa sa lahat ay ang
katotohanang kapag gusto
magpatawa ng pag-ibig, ipusta na mo na lahat ng
ari-arian mo dahil
siguradong ikaw ang punchline.

Nakakatawa no?

Nakakaiyak.

http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x4i53_i-think-i-love-you-byul-live

aaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy……love this song sooooooooo much….

"I Think I………………"
Byul ~ I Think I

gurolli obdago anirkorago midojyo MM~
nega guder sarang

handan

imardo andwejyo MM~
gwenhan jirtuir korago nega weroun gabodago
jashinur sogyo bwajiman ije donun nan gamchursuga obnun goryo

I THINK I LOVE YOU guron gabwayo
CUZ I MISS YOU gudeman obsumyon
nan amugodo mothago jaku sengag nago
irongor bomyon amuredo
I’M FALLING FOR YOU nan mollajiman
NOW I NEED YOU onusenga nemam
giphun gose aju kuge jari jabun gudeui mosubur ijen boayo~ MM~

urin ano ullindago chingu gugetag johdago MM~
hana butho yorge dodeche mwo hangerado manunge obnunde
otohge sakwirsu inyago mardo andwenun yegirago
marhamyo dullo dejiman ije donun nan gurogi gashirhun goryo

I THINK I LOVE YOU guron gabwayo
CUZ I MISS YOU gudeman obsumyon
nan amugodo mothago jaku sengag nago
irongor bomyon amuredo
I’M FALLING FOR YOU nan mollajiman
NOW I NEED YOU onusenga nemam
giphun gose aju, kuge jari jabun gudeui mosubur ijen boayo

we mollajyo guderanungor OOH~ YEAH
we modbwajyo baro aphinde HOO YE~
gu dongan irohge baro ne gyothe issonunde
we ijesoya sarangi boinungonji~ HOO~ OOH~ AH~

I THINK I LOVE YOU (LOVE YOU) guron gabwayo
CUZ I MISS YOU (MISS YOU) gudeman obsumyon (oh)
nan amugodo mothago jaku (mm) sengag nago (sengag nago)
irongor bomyon amuredo
(I’M~) I’M FALLING FOR YOU (FALLING FOR YOU) nan mollajiman
NOW I NEED YOU (NOW I NEED YOU) onusenga nemam (woo)
giphun gose aju (aju) kuge jari jabun (jabun)
gudeui mosubur ijen boayo~ OH~

OH~…

It’s 12 midnight, just came from a nice dinner and feel like writing something… nothing important really but few sentiments that’s dwelling inside of me lately… With matching love songs for my background (I’ll do anything for you is now playing) and a lighted cigarette, what a good life it is (no more alcohol, had enough already)….but i’m sad…f***!

Lately I was a bit of whiner, complaining how I’m starting to get bored with my work and being away from people who are really close in my heart…but then on the other thought, counting all the blessings I’m enjoying right now, it’s really not bad at all, rather somehow exhilarating… I guess life can’t be sooooooooo great…yeah right i’ve heard it all(something to the same effect), “there’s no such thing as perfect and what makes life perfect are its imperfections..,” I’ve got a wonderful family whose loving me just the way I am (missing most my mom and sisters right now, nonetheless, I’ve got karding with me) regardless if I’m miles away from them… friends through time (sis, panget, my siblings, and and those I lost in touch yet remain to be always there for me no matter what)  and those newly found ones (tita net & tito rj, my “filipino mafia friends” & other friends at GTA, my t***** & volleyball folks, my bro’s friends who became my friends, of course tita K) … ’bout someone special , doesn’t really matter to me now… I got everything I need and can really have anything I want… but still, sigh…

Got no real troubles except for my fears (success & failure)…I’m starting to get afraid of my independence right now since I’m not sure if I can really handle it…afraid of giving my heart and soul to something as I can lose the side of me which I really love…afraid that if I don’t, I might end up uttering to myself “I could have done it better”…wish I could get stuck in the middle so I can enjoy the best of both worlds…just be in the “and,’ but easier said than done…if fate will allow me, then at one point I’ll get cranky again and will find my self back to the same feelings I have now… sigh…yeah right, I’m one hell of a whiner, self centered, controlled freak yearning for an easy way out …call me confuse because I am… hope this is just what they call “20 something” crisis and hope it’s just another chapter that will pass by soon…

Im an addict..koreanovela addict!!

It started 3 years ago up to now. At first I found it so corny, but I guess there are things that can’t be prevented no matter how much you avoid it.. I got hooked…from lover’s in paris, to oh philseung, please save the last dance for me and my favorite, full house..i’ve seen the movie ‘my sassy girl’ and I love the same..

come to think of it, I haven’t seen that much but it really amazed me why I’m so lured to these koreanovelas.. not just once or twice, but all of it made me cry hard or the least, dried the tears in my eyes with my HC.

I’m really puzzled why do I like it so much?

Is it because of the actors? I guess partly, though not all are cute/ the prettiest, they are really good depicting the characters in the story…plus teh facial expression!!!lol

Is it because of the fashion? Definitely no!! but only them can pull away the bright color wardrobes!! from fuchsia, neon green, bright yellow, orange, name it!

Is it because of the setting/location? I like the countryside and market footages.. hope I could visit them some day. They are showing not just the nice and beautiful site seeings in Korea, but rather even the most ordinary place you can be.. 

Is it because of their culture? Somehow since often they give highlights on the importance of family.. there’s the drinking sessions and even the arranged marriage. one way of understanding their culture..

Or is it because of the soundtrack? I love them really.. i sometimes hum them whenever im happy or sad.. I’m not really sure what on earth does it mean but it’s really close to my heart.. 

After some thought when I get off to bed the other night, it was crystal clear to me why I love them so much…simply because it touches all kind of human emotions, my emotions… it’s about love, friends, family, struggles, hope, values…it’s about life’s flaws and beauties…

I have watched hundreds of movies and shows. From my childhood, to my confused teenage days, until when I’ve learned to distinguish and understand the meaning of loneliness and happiness.. I’m always skeptical and careful watching them, trying so hard to make sense of what I have watched. But with these koreanovelas, I’m effortlessly swept away by it.. it goes straight through my heart..giving me a different high I never thought I could find from it..

last night, again I was high and wouldn’t be the last time… I’m lucielle, I’m an addict…      

time passed by so quickly, never noticed so many things happened in my life…imagine, few mos from now i’ll be having my 2nd anniv away from home..!!!sigh…too bad, but not really…:) gulo ko!!!:) i guess sacrificing some things in your life cannot be avoided…it’s just a matter of which side of the coin you are looking at…

nways, 2k6 was (is pa pala) really a great year for me (TY po….)… to start  it up, i got a great job — KISSING ASSES!!!lol **but come to think of it, you need a lot of hardworks to do it!!!!hahaha*** kidding aside, i got this job that is challenging enough to keep me motivated (grow as a person), i have great colleagues & bosses, and the company is good; i was able to go home last april for a short vacation (bitin, sigh) even i just started to my work; did sky diving for free; got a lovely gift from my bro this xmas; i’m playing volleyball again (yipee, after so many years); met a lot of great people, new friends and yummy pips (hahaha); had a lot of realization; met sum1 inspiring me; my family are in good health and doing fine and keli is getting bigger and lovelier everyday…i could not ask for more…

to top it up, this is the year that i’ve realized i have changed a lot….i’ve become prettier (hahaha kapal), sexier (gaguhan na toh!), and just got better in many but positive ways (i guess)…and hope to keep it up…as 2k7 is approaching, hope i could uphold my new year’s resolution (crossed fingers)…:) AJA!!!:) plus, I’m just really excited coz there’s a lot waiting for me on the coming days…:)

nways, HAPPY NEW YEAR to mylsef and everyone!!!!:)

Henry Ford:
“Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off your goal.” –
“Whether you think you can or whether you think you can’t, you’re right.”

Mahatma Gandhi:
“Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will.”
“You must be the change you wish to see in the world.”
“The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.”

Socrates — idol toh!!!
“Virtue does not come from wealth, but wealth, and every other good thing which men have, comes from virtue.”
“I cannot teach anybody anything, I can only make them think.”
“True knowledge exists in knowing that you know nothing. And in knowing that you know nothing, that makes you the smartest of all.”

Albert Einstein — idol din!!!
“The important thing is not to stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existing. One cannot help but be in awe when he contemplates the mysteries of eternity, of life, of the marvelous structure of reality. It is enough if one tries merely to comprehend a little of this mystery every day. Never lose a holy curiosity.”
“We cannot solve our problems with the same thinking we used when we created them.”
“Anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new.”
“Few people are capable of expressing with equanimity opinions, which differ from the prejudices of their social environment. Most people are not even capable of forming such opinions.”
“Try not to become a man of success but rather to become a man of value.”

Famous Life Quotes of Mark Twain:
“I have never let schooling interfere with my education.”
“Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear, not absence of fear.”
“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream.”

Michael Jordan — one of my favorite “I missed more than 9,000 shots in my career and lost almost 300 games. On 26 occasions, I have been entrusted to take the game-winning shot and missed. I have failed over and over and over again in my life, and that’s precisely why I succeed.”